come and dance with me

Sunday, February 29, 2004

<10:48 PM>  hi everyone! i know this is long past due. sorry for the delay. here goes the update to end all.

i've moved! yup, living on my own. same building, 2 painful flights up. i have a feeling i was too eager to be alone. i've developed this habit of thinking that everything moving in my peripheral vision is an ant that must be squashed! and living with plastic bags and duct tape for windows is not ideal. you pay for what you get. but i’m happy trying this out. I’ve never lived alonealone before.

i'm 25! i don't usually feel any different on birthdays. quite the opposite: it usually takes me about a year to remember that i've turned one year older, and then it's another round of trying to remember how old i am. but for some reason, this year i did feel a little different. i know i'm still young, but now i feel like i finally have the rights to my own person. i am not just my parents' daughter. (tho try convincing them of that.)

i'm thinking of quitting my job that i was so excited about just 5 months ago. it's really draining work. i was telling emichemi about some of the things my clients say to me. looking back, it's kinda humorous. but in the heat of the moment, it's just too much. one lady actually accused me of intentionally forcing her back into her addiction. that threw me for a week. meebe i haven't gotten over it. meebe it's not something to get over. so i'm learning a lot...just meebe not sure what i'm learning. in my 25 yr old mind i'm discovering how much i don't know and how much i just won't understand because of my youth.

i’m engaged! I almost can't believe it. don and I have been dating for 4 years, and now we're finally here! it's SO EXCITING. we're set for 9.18, but there's so much work to do. and you better believe how stressful it can be. I know we'll get thru this, but until then…ogod. I hope I can get thru it in a healthy way.

ok I think that's all I got for now. stay tuned! hopefully I will return speedily. <gracie!>

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